hallavaris | a day of wrong decisions...

well, not necessarily wrong but the kind that feels somewhat wrong. I don't know if there is wrong decisions really. Maybe there is always a way out. Yeah. I did not sleep much. It was too hot and I had to wake up so early because I needed to go to the nature house. So just before catching the bus I got this grand idea of cutting the front of my hair by myself.. and as you may guess it did not turn out so well.. so I kept cutting it a bit more and a bit more until I really had to hurry for the bus.

I was so tired at the nature house that I decided to skip going to the folklore archives.. Stupid decision because I still have work to do there and I'm kind of running out of time. But I just did not feel like going. All day I was thinking if I should go after all but instead of doing anything useful I kept walking around in the shopping center. I was hungry but I could not decide whether I should go for a lunch or wait until I meet

velvet_realm and go together with her. I kind of wanted to go to the Nepalese again but at the same time I didn't want to go there at all (ever again). I felt I really needed to be a good girl and go to the archives but I wasn't and I didn't. So I went to the Nepalese and had major difficulties in deciding what to order. Fortunately the chick pea spinach stew was a good decision. After lunch I just wasted time and felt stupid, lost and lazy. And in the end I sent SMS to

velvet_realm to cancel our meeting as well and went home.. Well before getting home I actually visited a hairdresser and got my hair fixed. Then I came home, took the scissors and cut it quite a bit more in front of the mirror because I did not learn anything from the morning.. I had to tell myself to stop before it was too late.. my hair is a chaotic mess now and much shorter than it was before and weird as it is I totally like it.

And tomorrow the work starts and i feel I'm so not ready...