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Nov. 20th, 2003 04:58 pmIt's today. Actually I don't have any particular thing to say but I want to update anyway. I like being in this moment. It feels right.
I suppose I haven't written much about my work. I'm there every day so it has became a big part of my life. Sometimes I like it a lot, sometimes it just makes me tired. The mornings after premieres (especially children's movies!!!) are the worst. Sometimes I wonder how on earth people can cause such a mess in a couple of hours they're just sitting in their seats.
I kind of like the atmosphere in the cinema. Especially the second theatre is very beautiful. The lights are low. I also find it exciting to go to the machine rooms. I'm happy to notice that the films are still films and not some small digi cd's. I love to find pieces of film I can use in my collages and decos; sometimes they can be little treasures with a text like "Picture" or "Human stain".
When I'm cleaning and tidying I can also think about life. I must say I do a lot of pondering these mornings. It is good. Sometimes I dream or have dialogues in my head. Sometimes I wish I had a pen and a paper with me; verses come to my mind and I try to think about them over and over again and still I seem to forget them before i get them on paper. Sometimes I think how it would be to catch a pair of people making love in the dark theatre room.
I think about the people who has been there the previous night. Sometimes they leave things behind for me to find. Umbrella's mostly. Today I found a wedding ring in a silvery chain with a silvery dolphin. It was interesting because the chain wasn't broken. I wondered if it was a real diamond in the ring. And I was thinking about the importance of little things in our lives.
I have only watched 3 films myself since getting this job. Helmiä ja Sikoja, Pirates of Caribbean and Dirty Pretty Things. I think my taste of films may have changed a bit. There are some films I definitely want to see but nothing that is a must. I think about going to see "Love actually" (I like Alan Rickman) and in spring there will be a big historical saga about Troy (with Orlando Bloom as Paris). I have some kind of attraction to Troy, can't tell why. Somehow I seem to get back to those stories over and over again..
I would also like to see Spirited Away again. I love it so very much. It's not one of the films I could go to see for free but I would still like to see it again (would be 4th time?) I think about buying it for my nieces & nephew for christmas. i always want to give them something special.
I'm thinking about the past and the future but I like to be here in the middle way. There has been so many big things happening to me that I feel it is time to concentrate on the small ones now. I've decided to be strong now that I know weakness won't kill me. And I think the strenght of tenderness and peace are much underestimated these days.
Ah, one more thing. I have a feeling that almost every time I choose the mood for my LJ update it is a C word; calm, crappy or confused. I must investigate my moods from the past months and see what I've been the most :)
I suppose I haven't written much about my work. I'm there every day so it has became a big part of my life. Sometimes I like it a lot, sometimes it just makes me tired. The mornings after premieres (especially children's movies!!!) are the worst. Sometimes I wonder how on earth people can cause such a mess in a couple of hours they're just sitting in their seats.
I kind of like the atmosphere in the cinema. Especially the second theatre is very beautiful. The lights are low. I also find it exciting to go to the machine rooms. I'm happy to notice that the films are still films and not some small digi cd's. I love to find pieces of film I can use in my collages and decos; sometimes they can be little treasures with a text like "Picture" or "Human stain".
When I'm cleaning and tidying I can also think about life. I must say I do a lot of pondering these mornings. It is good. Sometimes I dream or have dialogues in my head. Sometimes I wish I had a pen and a paper with me; verses come to my mind and I try to think about them over and over again and still I seem to forget them before i get them on paper. Sometimes I think how it would be to catch a pair of people making love in the dark theatre room.
I think about the people who has been there the previous night. Sometimes they leave things behind for me to find. Umbrella's mostly. Today I found a wedding ring in a silvery chain with a silvery dolphin. It was interesting because the chain wasn't broken. I wondered if it was a real diamond in the ring. And I was thinking about the importance of little things in our lives.
I have only watched 3 films myself since getting this job. Helmiä ja Sikoja, Pirates of Caribbean and Dirty Pretty Things. I think my taste of films may have changed a bit. There are some films I definitely want to see but nothing that is a must. I think about going to see "Love actually" (I like Alan Rickman) and in spring there will be a big historical saga about Troy (with Orlando Bloom as Paris). I have some kind of attraction to Troy, can't tell why. Somehow I seem to get back to those stories over and over again..
I would also like to see Spirited Away again. I love it so very much. It's not one of the films I could go to see for free but I would still like to see it again (would be 4th time?) I think about buying it for my nieces & nephew for christmas. i always want to give them something special.
I'm thinking about the past and the future but I like to be here in the middle way. There has been so many big things happening to me that I feel it is time to concentrate on the small ones now. I've decided to be strong now that I know weakness won't kill me. And I think the strenght of tenderness and peace are much underestimated these days.
Ah, one more thing. I have a feeling that almost every time I choose the mood for my LJ update it is a C word; calm, crappy or confused. I must investigate my moods from the past months and see what I've been the most :)
