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Good feelings
Dec. 4th, 2003 01:17 pmI feel light and joyous and happy today. :)
There's many wonderful things in my life and I'm so very thankful for it all. I somehow feel a bit more balanced and sure now; hopeful in a good way.
It does not mean that I'm building on expectations but on solid base of emotional honesty and positive, light (but not shallow) attitude and feeling of joy and content (why oh why this word always has a negative sound.. as if feeling content meant that you are doing okay but not really great? I feel content and it means that life feels, tastes, seems, smells, sounds GOOD and everything I need and really want is here in this moment and it is a great blessing and source of joy)
Today i showed what to do at the working place to this forgein man who will come to do my job now and then which means that I WILL have FREE days from work!!! :D It is such a big happy thing that I think I will manage to go to work every day when I can think of it. I'll have my first free weekend (yes, both saturday & sunday FREE!!!) at the winter solstice time and then there's only a couple of working days before Christmas when I also have a couple of free days :)
I also feel that I'm going to give myself some time now. I have decided that I don't have to worry for study things and such before the beginning of January. It is far more important to face the past and heal from all I've been through, mourn what there is to mourn and remember what there is to remember about who I am and what is meaningful to me. It feels good.
I also want to make some creative crafts and Christmas presents (which at least to my forgein friends) will most likely be New year or Candlemass/Imbolc presents as it's already December what ever th. ;) But I hope to get at least something done :) Something I enjoy of doing.
Yesterday was a good day in many ways. Lots of sunshine even if the sun was behind the grey clouds all day.
I bought myself one of those amazing Tuija Leinonen's Elf dolls. She was expensive but I do not regret a cent I paid for her as she is just so very beautiful and positive and makes me smile every time I pass her. I've wanted one for years but never quite found the right one. I always thought it would be red or orange coloured one but yesterday at Christmas market (yeah, I know I thought I would not visit those this year.. ;)) I saw her and I made the decision without hesitations. It was a very good thing. She is gorgeous, pale olive green and old gold and truly gentle and down to Earth in a beautiful light way :) I'm in love with her. I'm in love with life too :)
There's many wonderful things in my life and I'm so very thankful for it all. I somehow feel a bit more balanced and sure now; hopeful in a good way.
It does not mean that I'm building on expectations but on solid base of emotional honesty and positive, light (but not shallow) attitude and feeling of joy and content (why oh why this word always has a negative sound.. as if feeling content meant that you are doing okay but not really great? I feel content and it means that life feels, tastes, seems, smells, sounds GOOD and everything I need and really want is here in this moment and it is a great blessing and source of joy)
Today i showed what to do at the working place to this forgein man who will come to do my job now and then which means that I WILL have FREE days from work!!! :D It is such a big happy thing that I think I will manage to go to work every day when I can think of it. I'll have my first free weekend (yes, both saturday & sunday FREE!!!) at the winter solstice time and then there's only a couple of working days before Christmas when I also have a couple of free days :)
I also feel that I'm going to give myself some time now. I have decided that I don't have to worry for study things and such before the beginning of January. It is far more important to face the past and heal from all I've been through, mourn what there is to mourn and remember what there is to remember about who I am and what is meaningful to me. It feels good.
I also want to make some creative crafts and Christmas presents (which at least to my forgein friends) will most likely be New year or Candlemass/Imbolc presents as it's already December what ever th. ;) But I hope to get at least something done :) Something I enjoy of doing.
Yesterday was a good day in many ways. Lots of sunshine even if the sun was behind the grey clouds all day.
I bought myself one of those amazing Tuija Leinonen's Elf dolls. She was expensive but I do not regret a cent I paid for her as she is just so very beautiful and positive and makes me smile every time I pass her. I've wanted one for years but never quite found the right one. I always thought it would be red or orange coloured one but yesterday at Christmas market (yeah, I know I thought I would not visit those this year.. ;)) I saw her and I made the decision without hesitations. It was a very good thing. She is gorgeous, pale olive green and old gold and truly gentle and down to Earth in a beautiful light way :) I'm in love with her. I'm in love with life too :)
